im tired....wanna have some rest...

its been almost 23 year, since the first time i've had my first breath in this unfair world. and until now, things are getting more complicated the normal. i haven't experienced a normal life,...a simple one. it seems that i have the worst sin ever committed so that i have to be punished like this. never ending problems come-up everyday, overlapping to one another and i think later on i m gonna be buried inthis mess that i didn't want in the first place. i have no one to hold on eccept for my myself....ive been crying every night, and my tears a getting fewer and fewer...i tired of being like this...i wanna start a new life..a life no worries, no other people to think about, no expectations and no complications.(sigh......) but i guess i have to endure more than this things to become stronger. but for whom? i have no one to share it with....all of them are only using me for their onw survival....fuck......i hate this life.....